postcards from holland: Learning to Love...
A year and a half ago I wrote
"Learning to Love..." and posted it on the group blog,
"Postcards from Holland". I'm not sure when Doug became rooted in my heart as deeply as my daughters are...but it did happen somewhere along the way...some unrecognized day in this past year and half.
I remember how it broke my heart as I wrote then that I would know when my heart loved him, because I would no longer be able to choose. As that realization reverberated through my heart, I remember fearing there might never be a time when I could not choose...but, somewhere along the way it HAS happened. I am completely his mother and he is utterly my child. I want to write another essay for "Postcards from Holland"--an essay from the other side...but, for now, these few lines in this blog will have to do, I guess.